Hello my name is Jacqueline and I was a loyal witness for over 60 yrs. I moved when the organization moved. I have been an aux. and a regular pioneer, aiding many to come to a knowledge of the truth. I am a third generation witness. I have many family members who are still witnesses. My Crisis of Conscience began when I became aware of the governing body’s great influence and encroachment on Jesus’ place in the congregation. It seems he was mentioned less and less each year, but the governing body scores of times during the meetings. I left in August 2009 and went back to the original Bible Students in January 2010. As a” Holistic Alternative Psychology Practitioner”, I was also disturbed over the many pedophile cases that came my way, done by elders and other brothers within the congregation. I made the society aware. Little did I know it created a file on me in Bethel. I thought I was making them aware of something they didn’t know about. I was wrong. They already knew and threatened to disfellowship me if I cooperated with one case. I had a “ CRISIS OF CONSCIENCE” and went in “SEARCH OF CHRISTIAN FREEDOM” IN CHRIST.
I am here only to help ones that have come to a crisis where “THEY” have decided to leave the Corporation, need help and Christian Fellowship. Sometimes we don’t know where to go. So it is with this attitude and mindset of the Lord Christ Jesus that I want to do what I can, if the Lord permits. Additionally, I prayed hard before deciding to reach out and help if someone needed it. I could have been satisfied with just escaping myself. I was on a sinking luxury ship, I prayed for help. And along came a little TUGBOAT. (The Bible Students). How could I not throw the lifeline to the ones that had jumped without knowing about the little Tugboat. Torgue, Tug placement and Momentum allows a little tugboat to pull even a big ship. There is lots of room on board for those that need something less polished, sleek, fancy and slick. Just plain old Bible , Jehovah and Jesus. No fancy building, just love and trust. The little Tugboat was sent by Jehovah I feel to rescue me and others, that need something that just sticks to the Bible without Big Corporation laws and by-laws.
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In Christ, Jacqueline.
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hey jackie and friends it has been a while since we last talked .. to bring those of u who know my journey up-to- date in my awaken process i have come to terms with my emotions and feelings about my abusers and organizied religions now i am at the point where i am ready to confront these ppl and let my voice b heard …. some of these ppl i havent seen nor talked to in 20 plus years …. my higher power has given me the strength to confront these demons ….all i ask of u my friends is to pray for me and wit me so i can have the strength wen i do confront my demons to stand strong like i have in my recovery and not break down and let them see my pain and hatred for them but for them to see that i am a survivor and that i have the backin of a higher power higher than my own worldly power that has given me a godly quality of forgiveness in my heart to forgive those that have trepassed me …. hopin all my friends are in good health …. God bless to all my bros. and sistahs…
Hello Chinita!!! Rick Feason called about you Saturday. I pray you are okay. How are you going to confront to let your voice be heard? If ir is going to be personal let me know please, because you are going to need a place to run if you do that here in our city. We have not forgotten you. I think of you every week. I follow you on facebook but I never comment. Some may not know about your story but the can fin it in the comments. I will go get the link and post it here in this comment. We will stick by you in your trials. Maybe so of the friends in Australia will see your comment also.
Your story begins about here http://www.friendsofjehovahswitnesses.com/ask-jacqueline/comment-page-26/#comment-4467
don’t mean to be hogging the comments but I just have to give this testimony or it will eat me up inside. (I am a female with a big mouth tee-hee-hee.)
I watched on Netflix how the bible books were chosen, and read the book of enoch and am reading about armageddon. Last night I got in an agony after seeing all this and prayed specifically to Jehovah and asked even using names that they get to know at least a little of the real truth. I begged his pardon if this was not his will at this time, but I asked with specifics anyway.
You guessed it! I was awaken before it was time to get up by one of the specific persons mentioned in prayer!(Not really unusual for the person to call but not so early) Except this person asked me how the Bible Canon was chosen. They asked if there were other Holy writings. They said I don’t just listen to what men say anymore. I want to get to know Jehovah and the Bible. This person told me of others that were studying that are baptised but not attending the KH. This person asked if I would come and help them but stay at another resident for these discussions can’t take place in their JW home. I was shocked!I went to sleep at 3am but my prayer was answered at 8:30am.
And that is not all, before I prayed one of the other persons I mentioned by name will be in the same facility as a BS convention. I just have to leave that in the hands of Jesus! Now if the only other person that I called by name gets in touch with me, you can come see me in the emergency room! It will be to much for me to bear, but 2 out of three not bad at all. Thanks for sharing my joy. jacqueline
Ken, I went over to the ask Jacqueline page because I have to “eat some Crow” or “my hat” and this seems like a nice dining room to do it.LOL It is about my bucket list. I put the pyramid of Gezer on it for later. Welllll, I read the book of Enoch and learned why it was quoted from at Jude 14, and referenced at Heb.11:5. I can see why it was once a part of the Canon of scripture and why some inserts would cause the Jews to decide against it. But something happened today. I decided to really clean my kitchen today and listen and look occasionally at Netflix. There was a New release section and in it was “Ancient Aliens” season 1, Episode1- “The evidence”. It started off talking about evidence of special knowledge being given to mankind because of these spaceship like artifacts found etc. But, I turned and sat down when it mention GEZER as distinct and different from even the pyramids. The size of the Blocks were overkill, I didn’t know that. 100 family cars mussed together will give you an idea of how large 1 block was. I am still listening but they are on top of the subject of Gezer. Did someone push this to the top of my “Bucket List”? I don’t know, Im just saying. Too much strange stuff happens, now that I am open to listening to the Holy Spirit as it tries to teach me. Ehesians 4:30 applies to me. I have been resisting it’s guidance. Verse 29 also applies. I am henceforth going to try and cut the watchtower and it’s governing body some slack! I will continue to expose and speak about the issues but be a little kinder. I am simply overwhelmed by today’s events. I was not looking for any info on the magnitude of the pyramid Gezer. I will continue to watch or listen to this documentary now with what Br. Russell said (altho I must admit I have done only a brief glimpse at it). Just thought I had to share that with someone. I am a work in progress, so glad he is not giving up on me. I don’t mean to, but I get incensed when I see the Lord’s people suffering so under Canon Laws. When I see stress put on families and people for no Biblical reason. But, I am going to be a little nicer in my comments. I know I will backslide because I am passionate about helping my JW brothers that have chosen of their own accord to leave. Thanks for listening.
PS: Getting my spoon and fork for my hat and crow eating.
I have finished the episode and am floored and humbled by the fact that BR. Russell had reason to believe that this was a stone monument from God. I didn’t know everything would center on Gezer in this documentary but they have come to pretty much the same conclusion using our knowledge now that was not available to Br. Russell and others in his time. I will not speak again without searching out the subject. The snow is coming down really hard now. Our area might get 6-8 or more inches. Brrrrr
Interesting experience Jacqueline.
If you haven’t already done it I might suggest you go to Vol. III and read the last chapter. That will give you and overview on the pyramid, including probably the best way to determine the date of construction and some interesting pieces of scientific information hidden in it’s construction, etc. in brief. Then Russell delivers a brief overview of prophetic significances he believed were incorporated into it’s design and construction.
The book I linked to is much more comprehensive, but that chapter is a very good place to start if you haven’t already read it. One of my classes is going through that chapter right now. so I’m getting to take some time with it before delving in the Edgars’ books, of which I have the first two.
Thanks Dupin.
I watched an interesting documentary called DMT: The Spirit Molecule. It seems, at least on the surface, to complement Russell’s thoughts about fear-based control systems. I also think it’s confirmation that neutrality should not be confined to governmental and ideological systems, but all of Jehovah’s creation. It’s on YouTube as well: http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DLXCMONpTM9I%26sns%3Dfb&sns=fb&v=LXCMONpTM9I&gl=US
On a personal note, I would welcome your advice on the following
I’m really struggling with my communication with people who don’t speak the language it takes to understand biblical wisdom. I try to wake them from the worldly control systems that imprison them, but…??? I know several commented that this was really an unnecessary task…but how can you possibly know this and keep your mouth shut
Matthew I know how you feel, it is like a fire shut up in your bones! But tell me would it do much good to swat the wind? It is neutral you don’t affect it. It is not a bad thing nor a good thing. That is just the way the wind is. People are like that sometimes not affected by prodding or pushing, there is nothing there to push or move. They are not so much bad as apathetic. Not aware, whether because of ignorance of the value of spiritual things or some find it to complicated and confusing, so they just don’t respond. But guess what in the millenium they will remember you and be oh so glad you warned them otherwise they might think this (millenium)is a dream and fight it. Surely something this important would have been talked about they might say. So keep talking, maybe not now but in the new world they will accept the reign of Christ because you warned them. Remember Ezekial said to warn the wicked, for in the milleniun it will help them have the faith they need. And you will smile and realize you wanted instant results but we won’t see a lot of the effects of the preaching work until Millenium. But at least you are giving them a running chance my brother. The synaps in their brain is stamping it down deep, it will pull it up when needed in Millenium. Like algebra,geometry and trigonometry we do pull it up when needed, we heard the teacher and they hear you. Would you believe millenium if no one ever said anything about it in your lifetime? That’s why Jesus told us to start early while he was still alive even so as all are resurrected they will say oh I remember A fellow named Matthew talking about this. You will have saved yourself and them too. Because you were obedient.Take Care
PS: Also instead of it not being a neccessary task it is a requirement to get life yourself according to Ezekial. I am on the road and don’t have access to a paper copy of Bible, so please forgive me for referencing instead of quoting. I think you know that It is a requirement by Jesus at Matt. 29:19,20 also, you must preach to be a part of the kingdom.