Hello my name is Jacqueline and I was a loyal witness for over 60 yrs. I moved when the organization moved. I have been an aux. and a regular pioneer, aiding many to come to a knowledge of the truth. I am a third generation witness. I have many family members who are still witnesses. My Crisis of Conscience began when I became aware of the governing body’s great influence and encroachment on Jesus’ place in the congregation. It seems he was mentioned less and less each year, but the governing body scores of times during the meetings. I left in August 2009 and went back to the original Bible Students in January 2010. As a” Holistic Alternative Psychology Practitioner”, I was also disturbed over the many pedophile cases that came my way, done by elders and other brothers within the congregation. I made the society aware. Little did I know it created a file on me in Bethel. I thought I was making them aware of something they didn’t know about. I was wrong. They already knew and threatened to disfellowship me if I cooperated with one case. I had a “ CRISIS OF CONSCIENCE” and went in “SEARCH OF CHRISTIAN FREEDOM” IN CHRIST.
I am here only to help ones that have come to a crisis where “THEY” have decided to leave the Corporation, need help and Christian Fellowship. Sometimes we don’t know where to go. So it is with this attitude and mindset of the Lord Christ Jesus that I want to do what I can, if the Lord permits. Additionally, I prayed hard before deciding to reach out and help if someone needed it. I could have been satisfied with just escaping myself. I was on a sinking luxury ship, I prayed for help. And along came a little TUGBOAT. (The Bible Students). How could I not throw the lifeline to the ones that had jumped without knowing about the little Tugboat. Torgue, Tug placement and Momentum allows a little tugboat to pull even a big ship. There is lots of room on board for those that need something less polished, sleek, fancy and slick. Just plain old Bible , Jehovah and Jesus. No fancy building, just love and trust. The little Tugboat was sent by Jehovah I feel to rescue me and others, that need something that just sticks to the Bible without Big Corporation laws and by-laws.
Ask a question, share your experience, or just blog and talk. We all would love to hear from you. This is a fear- free zone. Comment on questions, reply, or just follow our blog.
In Christ, Jacqueline.
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- “WAR OF WORDS” – Response to Nov 15 Watchtower Article, Study Version
- When Family members leave the JW Organization-Should they be Shunned?
- How Can Doubting Jehovah’s Witnesses FADE to Avoid being Marked, Shunned or Disfellowshipped?
- More about how to FADE (gradually leave the Watchtower Society) with minimum damage
- My Story – Part 2 – A New Hope (Outside of the JW Organization)
- My Story – Part 1 – Why I Left the Jehovah’s Witnesses Organization
Statistics for Dec. 30th,2011-Jan.30th,2012
2,252 unique visitors made:
3,740 visits and viewed:
9,765 pages, from:
104 countries; new versus return visitors almost equal in favor of new visitors to the site.
Wow!So does this represent an increase?
No Ken we have had as many as 130 countries. However we have a significant increase from Sweden 74, that is way up.
Over 9,000 page views is very high. We average 120-211 unique visitors per day especially when there is significant dialogue on deep things brothers want to know. ie you brothers are talking about Br. Rutherford and the changes, that is what many want to know. What happened and why the changes, who made then and why. I am following and enjoying. Also on the road and with family but following on my droid. Take Care my dear Brothers in Christ.
Sister Jacqueline,
Our conversation was amazing! You my dear have left an impression on my heart. Our father keeps you close to me, and our brother keeps you safe. The thought of you and the love you have brings a smile to my face. I will soon post my story…so much info on this site
I send my love from California,
Sister Monique
Hello Monique!You are so kind.Thanks, all glory goes to the father. Isn’t it nice to be in conversations without fear? I am loving it. We look forward to hearing your story. I am going to get me some coffee for a min here and be back. I went to sleep at 4am had a nasty asthma attack but handling it now. It was one of those attacks where you add a PS to your will type thing. LOL
You are tooooo cute! Such a gift you are. I was just talking about you (texting) with brother Phil. I hope you are doing better today. Tea and honey, ever try Manuka honey? I have found it to be a great help…I use it every day..
Hey, I might try that thanks. Yore happiness come thru in your writing Monique! If you are as happy and secure as I am I don’t know how you stand it.
Sometimes I talk to Jesus and can only just say Thank You. I admit the journey thru the JW was necesary for me. It taught me obedience. I also was very happy as a child, because my congregation was still BS based until 1962 when the society appointed a dear brother and we no longer voted. I say dear because he was very nice and just died in Birmingham a year ago at a very ripe old age. You can’t know freedom sometimes if you have not known bondage. Jesus knew what was the best trials to take me thru. Like Jesus we learn obedience from the things we suffer sometimes. I think the BS went thru their trials the way they did so they would understand the xjw that Jehovah foreknew would be coming out. It all works together in the accomplishment of his will. They were hidding in plain sight. I think blindness was imparted to JW because it was not time. Now he can take out ones for his name for it has been a trial for many of us. He knows what he is doing, I am impressed and as such ready to do whatever God and Jesus wills for me.
29yrs old, wow! Monique you are to be commended for your spirituality. Believe me that is young for such knowledge. But when Jesus calls you age is no factor. The Holy Spirit according to Joel 2: says your sons and daughters will prophesy (teach or declare).Pentecost saw this great outpouring of spirit but in this Gospel Age we see anew. And as a young one you have the energy and the strength.The prophets only dreamed of this day but we see all the ones being joined to Christ. I think we are nearer than we think Monique. I think we are near to fulfilment of Matt 25:45-51 in it’s entirety. These are exciting times. I am loving it. Please write your story for others to see, it will be a blessing and encouragement for others. On testimony page, let it be as long as you like. You will be surprised how just one little part, another will be able to identify and get the burning in their heart satisfied. I look forward to it when you get a chance. Love you and take care.
PS. I just ordered this life alert thing, that goes wherever I go. Remember the commercial, “I have fallen but I can’t get up”. I used to laugh but it’s not funny now. LOL
I have told a lot of people about our conversation. Even my family enjoyed hearing of your enthusiam and happiness. They are not offended when I tell them a little about the friends I have now. An Elder here and wife said they have heard about my happiness now and he was so supportive and glad he said that I was not stumbled. I told him I knew he was in my corner, I have no problems or bad thoughts about the elders in my area. My pain with the org has been replaced with the joy that comes in the morning.
Do you find yourself sort overwhelmed with joy sometimes Monique?
Oh girl you put a smile on my face….please let me know if you need anything. Our father uses us in amazing ways….I say amazingness(I often make up my own words) so don’t mind my crazy speech…
He gives us the instinct to run, it depends on those who listen. Sometimes it’s hard to stop talking. I can say I personally do love the sound of my own voice but once I realized it wasn’t #1, I was able to hear my fathers voice, and what a gift it was to be guided to his truth. No ONE can take the love I have for him or my brother my King Jesus away. It is tough, not the easy road nor is it the road I thought I would be on. When I find the people I love and have grown to know as my family taken away from me, my heart hurts. I know Jehovah is love, and turning your back on your family because they love Jehovah more has brought me to the narrow road and I am truly alone but I know he catches my tears and mends my heart with his thread of love. It’s the only way I am able to continue, Jehovah gave me a father and I have the answers I needed and I am ok with that. He guided me to you and other BS, he is mending my heart with my brothers and sisters….
I will post my story soon….
Sister Monique
You have us Monique, if you pour your heart out to your family sometimes they lighten up because they don’t want to lose your affection to others. Reverse Psych. tactic. My sons and daughter-in-laws got jealous, my sister told me. (LOL) They are texting me inbetween my writing on the site right now and the last two days. They shun you because they have been misled to think it will bring you back to the organization. They don’t know any better if their thinking is done by others. But, they are human and have natural affection. They think when you leave the org you are out there suffering and just dying to have the association in the org again. When you let them see you have friends, sometimes a few will say I don’t think so!. My baby is not going to get along without me, and they will if the Lord’s willing be more cordial slowly. But let them know about your new friends in Christ. It can’t get any worse.
My family is just constantly texting me be right back before they panic and call 911.
Andy, let us know how you are doing, please.
Thank you sr Jacqueline
got it thanks Jacqueline. i will send you a email today
I got your email my brother and I will get in touch with the sister later tonight. Godspeed.