Hello my name is Jacqueline and I was a loyal witness for over 60 yrs. I moved when the organization moved. I have been an aux. and a regular pioneer, aiding many to come to a knowledge of the truth. I am a third generation witness. I have many family members who are still witnesses. My Crisis of Conscience began when I became aware of the governing body’s great influence and encroachment on Jesus’ place in the congregation. It seems he was mentioned less and less each year, but the governing body scores of times during the meetings. I left in August 2009 and went back to the original Bible Students in January 2010. As a” Holistic Alternative Psychology Practitioner”, I was also disturbed over the many pedophile cases that came my way, done by elders and other brothers within the congregation. I made the society aware. Little did I know it created a file on me in Bethel. I thought I was making them aware of something they didn’t know about. I was wrong. They already knew and threatened to disfellowship me if I cooperated with one case. I had a “ CRISIS OF CONSCIENCE” and went in “SEARCH OF CHRISTIAN FREEDOM” IN CHRIST.
I am here only to help ones that have come to a crisis where “THEY” have decided to leave the Corporation, need help and Christian Fellowship. Sometimes we don’t know where to go. So it is with this attitude and mindset of the Lord Christ Jesus that I want to do what I can, if the Lord permits. Additionally, I prayed hard before deciding to reach out and help if someone needed it. I could have been satisfied with just escaping myself. I was on a sinking luxury ship, I prayed for help. And along came a little TUGBOAT. (The Bible Students). How could I not throw the lifeline to the ones that had jumped without knowing about the little Tugboat. Torgue, Tug placement and Momentum allows a little tugboat to pull even a big ship. There is lots of room on board for those that need something less polished, sleek, fancy and slick. Just plain old Bible , Jehovah and Jesus. No fancy building, just love and trust. The little Tugboat was sent by Jehovah I feel to rescue me and others, that need something that just sticks to the Bible without Big Corporation laws and by-laws.
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In Christ, Jacqueline.
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jacqueline how are you? Chinita how are you bearing up,have either of ever thought about writing & having published a chronicling of your experiences,you both have a long way to go.Jacqueline chinita has forgiven you.Jehovah has forgiven you,but i think you are finding it hard to forgive yourself.bear in mind you were young & inexperienced &it should never have fallen to you to fix or make better.God willing you find the strength to forgive yourself Love to you both phillip
Philip,
Thanks so much for your support. I have finally got peace and Chinita and I have talked and she was never angry at me, if fact she said I was her support system along with another sister, who BTW was not aware at the time either. Things happen to strenghten you for the work ahead. You are right I was raising children, younger than Chinita and like most witnesses didn’t have a clu. I remember all these strange talks, whose subject matter was over the top but we didn’t know. I am smiling now. I just talked with one of the administrators who realized this was the victim I always spoke about. You see it’s likie if you see a murder of a child and don’t report it or help or tell the parents where the body is. That would haunt you to your grave so that was my situation, but now all is well. Thanks.
im a writer philip so just i do have a journal of my life but no its not been published …..im just not ready at this point to bear all i still have a long journey before i can be that lamb amongst wolfs ……
Hi, Chinita,
Congratulations for speaking out on this matter. It’s good for us all that you have done so and especially so for the many victims of abuse.
Joe
P.S. Jacqueline, I did put up the link mentioned in the other posting here.
thanks joe for your words for encouragement ….. it helps to know that im not alone in my fight for the rights of the innocent……
Good morning everyone. This is a very encouraging place. I am in a little bit going to put a link off on my website to it: http://www.christianwitnesses.com
Keep up the great comments everyone.
Good to hear from you Joe. Thanks for all you do to encourage our Christian friends.
chinita what a can of worms you’ve opened!!!. i applaud you for the courage you have shown. i would be honoured,proud & privileged beyond measure to call you friend.
thanks for your support phil…. i never thought that me speakin at would impact so many …. thanks to everyone for there prayers and there words of encouragement …. if i had of had this much support then i probably wouldnt have lost my faith in humanity…. thanks for helpin god make into my life…..
Jacqueline my belief is ignorance within the greater cong,& intimidation within the leading congregation.the shame of not protecting is conflicted because within the house of Jehovah noone should need protecting & the fact that these less than human-beings have infiltrated means somewhere someone has lowered their guard,never would i have thought or guessed such a story could be anything but a story,but now i know my obligation is to be vigilant,aware,& awake to these “beings” within my cong.i no longer claim ignorance which means i am responsible not for abuse but for ignoring danger signs.i hope never to see it but hope even more fervently that if i do see it i will have the courage to face it,& provide a measure of safety for the victim.i hope to stand unafraid if i am confronted with horrific allegations,& i believe due to Chinita & you Jacqueline, i maybe able to. Jehovahs blessings & love robin
robin, every voice and hand helps. These wicked men have to know you will have the mothers to deal with. That sisters will protect their children.
You and I are mothers, so I hearts hurt at the thought of the unthinkable happening to a child male or female. I am as guilty as the next witness was for allowing intimidation. I wrote the society about other horrible things dealing with our young girls in that cong. Brothers standing at the book counter and literally disrobing them with their eyes when they went to the ladies room etc. Young teenage boys observing this conduct and talking about it. They sent an apostasy committee after me but my brothers in the new cong. Knew what I said was true and had years ago said it themselves. I thought the society would change and stop the intimidation, but when A CO and Do threatenened me with DF, I cowarded down on this very case with Chinita. I have felt bad and told everyone about her trying to find her and apologize for not coming to her aid. In fact she is the reason I am so involved along with about 3 of my own little relatives that were victims of pedophilia by Elders who were respected and there was knowledge they were pedophiles. It is just so refreshing to see another woman , a sister says your words. Most would go against the victim. So you take car my sister. I think this is as one poster put it a can of worms have been opened. That cong. has alledgely many more victim. I was once asked by a high ranking bethelite what was the problem in those 2 cong. Then when I wrote and told them the society erupted. So I keep clear of them now and just now am trying to get in the right frame of mind for the greatest event to hit this earth. The Memorial of our deliverer Jesus. I will be on the road today, heading for home. See ya. In Christ Jacqueline
lil sista please dont get it wrong wen someone comes into the house of god they are give another chance at life and wen they are baptized the are cleansed for there past sins so in there eyes they are a new so they feel those feelings are no more cause god has take all that away and give us a new life within god but in all actuality they are wolves in sheep clothing ….. there are good christian out there like the ones that started this site…. blessings to u